Whys it so hard to keep myself from texting her… I keep having to stop myself. “Remind me why we decided this was for the best”. Ha fuck. Just gotta Keep Moving Forward.
I just wish people would appreciate me instead of taking me for granted. I am getting tired of it. Just a little appreciation would go along way.
Its crazy how unexpected things happen. How can you get a grip on life if you grab onto an idea and then that idea turns around and is blind sided by something new? I am convinced its impossible to plan. And to do so is now foolish. Its nice to be surprised at times. Other times it can be disastrous. This surprise was pleasant. We shall see where it leads. Not going to invest in any plans around it. Just going to be a Jellyfish. “Go with the flow and dont stop”.
(500) Days of Weezy - Please, Hustler, Please
I have never ever ever loved the internet as much as I do right now. I think my entiresummeruniversity career has officially been made.
“if love isnt a game… then why can you still win or lose it?”-Pillars of the Earth
damn this is harder than i thought. I keep trying to move on but i keep sucking myself back into it. It feels like i am ready and done and i am over it but this acting is so tiring. I was hoping getting away from it all. Starting new in a sense would help. Worrying and taking care of myself would make life easier… but i know it isn’t the case. Its getting harder to fool myself into believing things when shit keeps getting thrown back in my face. I need that fast forward button. One that would help me just get over this already. I guess its what happens when you feel like something is a sure thing suddenly becomes just another fanciful dream. I just tried so hard. Gave it my all. Hell its the one thing i ve actually put the most effort in. Kinda interesting i say. Why the hell does everything have to be so damn complicated.
People are just to damn fake but in turn the reality can be just to damn hard…
I wonder if i ll ever be able to find someone that truly understands me… seems so damn unlikely at this point…
Tell me there’s a logic out there.
Leading me to better prepare
For the day that something really special might come.
Tell me there’s some hope for me.
I don’t wanna be lonely
For the rest of my days on the earth.
- Weezer
Someone help me keep my happy thoughts?
“All we ever see of stars are there old Photographs”
Not talkin’ ‘bout a year
No not three or four
I don’t want that kind of forever
In my life anymore
Forever always seems
to be around when it begins
but forever never seems
to be around when it ends
So give me your forever
Please your forever
Not a day less will do From you
People spend so much time
Every single day
Runnin’ ‘round all over town
Givin’ their forever away
But no not me
I won’t let my forever roam
and now I hope I can find
my forever a home
So give me your forever
Please your forever
Not a day less will do
From you
Like a handless clock with numbers
An infinite of time
No not the forever found
Only in the mind
Forever always seems
to be around when things begin
but forever never seems
to be around when things end
So give me your forever
Please your forever
Not a day less will do
From you
How can I open up when I don’t know if you wamt to hear it. I do open up. But then you tell me that I am to negative…. I am under a shitload of stress. I have alot on my plate and talking about it and venting is one way I deal with it. Holding it in makes things worse for me. If you don’t want to hear and prefer going to other people tto hear more positive things then I ll just stop saying what’s bothering me. I am not doing it out of mailice or anything. But I mean it hurts knowing you go to other people to feel better… I want to be that person to make you feel better… Maybe your right maybe i am miserable… i dont know what to do about it….
This Is Life-Altering, You Should Watch It of the Day: David Fu’s stellar tribute to Carl Sagan’s iconic “Pale Blue Dot” will either help focus your priorities, or plunge you deep into unassuageable despair over the negligible significance of your life when held up against the imperceivable vastness of time and space.
Well… enjoy!
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At what point did I start messing up with everyone? Shit
